I miss my Grams

I just miss my Grams today. It is one of my co-worker's birthdays and she mentioned that each year her Grandma flies up to Indiana from wintering in Florida to celebrate with her. I couldn't help but say, "Oh my gosh I miss my Grams" and tell her show special those times were. Then I hurried back to my office and bawled my eyes out because I'll never see my Grams again in this life.

I cannot help but think about how much we take for granted.

My Grams was always spunky and quite healthy so I really didn't think we'd lose her anytime soon and certainly not before she got to give me a hard time about reaching 30 in a few years. She knew that I hate aging and liked to always give me a hard time about "getting SO old!!"

I'm thankful that I got to spend what turned out to be her last birthday with her- she was visiting Indiana at the time and staying with us so we took her to the Olive Garden. I got a birthday card from her and Gramps each year with a $25 check in it with "Happy Birthday JENNA :)" written in the memo portion. I'll miss that check (and not because I want the money as $25 was quite exciting at age 10 and just thoughtful at age 28 as I'll be this year- AHH) this year and every year for the rest of my life. I'm well aware that she is in a place far better than I can imagine, but I just miss her. And I think that's allowed.