Most holidays I tell Jackson- after playing the family's accountant and paying all of our bills- that I don't need a present. I do not mean it. It is just the sensible side of me talking. I hate her. After over five years of marriage and many tiffs, Jackson still buys this line each time I throw it out there. On February 13th I finished my Valentine's day shopping after spending a lot of time thinking about what to get while keeping to a budget. Jackson was not planning on shopping. Uh oh.
He went out on Valentine's evening and got me expensive perfume. I cannot wear perfume to work anymore- someone has an allergy- and I didn't need any. He also bought me $60 yoga pants that were not on sale. We don't buy yoga pants at full price in this family. It was just clearly a rushed, thoughtless effort that left me quite sad. I keep telling myself that it is just a silly holiday that doesn't mean much, but that is not working. I am sad and I realize that sounds a little bratty.
I know that eventually my feelings will no longer be hurt, but for now they're a little sore. I think we all want to feel special sometimes. I guess now is not my time.
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Never, never say you don't want or need something. I did it once on Valentine's Day when Charlie gave me a gridle. I told him if you couldn't do better then don't buy me anything! Bad idea as I did not get anything on Valentine's Day for many years. It is just another day and he always made me feel special in many other ways.
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