I'm sure it is clear in my posts that my Grams' death has been SO hard on me. I don't think I've made it through a single day without just bawling my eyes out thinking of her being gone. I've tried my best to stay really busy as to not allow myself to dwell on it, but it seems that something always reminds me.
I heard this song today called "You're gonna miss this" and while the whole song did not apply to my life, this part did:
You're gonna miss this
You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These are some good times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this
When I was little I always found myself wishing my life away. I was ready to be 16 then 18 then ready for college then ready for the "real world" and now I miss all of that and want things to slow down. Isn't it funny how life works? I'd love to have one more visit to the bustling town of Okeechobee, Florida (ha!) to have some laughs with my Grams.
I feel certain that one day I will be able to think of her without crying, but that day isn't here yet. My Mom gave me a photo Grams had of her holding our MacKenzie ("You guys love that little dog so much!" Grams used to always say) so I hung it in my office. I think I'll like seeing it each day.
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I am so glad you have such fond memories with your Grams!! I hope that I too can get over the sadness with the loss that I feel. We all need to slow down and enjoy the moments we have.
I love you, so very much. I am so proud of the woman that you have grown into and yes it all went too fast for me!!! I still see my little girl with such conviction and drive, I am glad that has not changed.
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